For almost 12 years, I was a competitive swimmer. I could eat whatever I wanted because I was training at least 15 hours a week in and out of the pool. After an unsuccessful attempt at swimming in college, I stopped swimming competitively and my eating habits didn’t adjust accordingly. I quickly gained the “freshman 15”, and about 10-15 pounds just about every year after that.
Last fall, my husband and I decided to train for a triathlon. I felt like it was going to be the answer to my eating/diet issues. It wasn’t. I fell into the “I’m working out, I can eat whatever I want” trap. And, the truth was, I couldn’t. I was eating all of the wrong things and it showed. When I told people that I was going to do I triathlon I felt as though they were thinking to themselves, “How could she possibly complete a triathlon?” I hated where I was.
So, I decided to change my ways. It is no longer just about the training, it is the whole package. I’m not holding anything back. I need to do this for my future health and happiness.
I know that I have to improve my relationship with food – I have to learn to really love it for what it can do for me, not just as something I put into my body that tastes good, but as something that I use as fuel. I’ve suffered through disordered eating and emotional eating. It’s time to break the cycle! Food is something that I need in order to live. I love cooking and finding healthy alternatives for food, and I can’t wait to incorporate my past cooking into my new healthy lifestyle.
It’s time to be a good role model for the athletes I train. I hate telling them they should eat better when I don’t do it myself. I want to be able to say, with confidence, that I could do the workout I am giving them. And, someday (soon!) I will be able to!
Why blog my journey? I’ve learned that I can stay on track a little bit better when I write things down. And, maybe I can connect with others who have the same issues.
My goals are to bring down my weight to a healthy weight and be a competitor in future triathlons. It’s not about a fad diet or something that’s going to work right now – it’s about finding balance and not depriving myself of anything. It is about finding a solution that will last the rest of my life.
I know it’s not going to be easy, but I’m at a point where I can’t let this go on any further. I need to be a good role model and be happy and healthy again.